There are certain times in ones life when you come to have what I like to call a eureka moment. A short but very powerful moment in which you come to the realization of something you have been studying or trying to discover. It's one of those moments that takes your breath away, puts a smile on your face, gets your heart racing, and your blood pumping. I have had several of these moments in my lifetime both as an atheist and as a believer.
One of those moments came when I was reading the bible and thought that I had finally solved the mystery of the so called trinity and the tripartite nature of God. I was so excited and had thought then and there that the Lord had imparted that knowledge to me in that very moment. I came to believe that God was actually three different beings and when the bible stated that they were one that they were only one in plan and purpose. At that moment I guess you could have called me a polytheist but for some reason it completely made sense to me. In the creation story it said several times that God would use the words us, we, whenever he said something. So I asked myself who is God referring to in those statements?
As an atheist one of my eureka moments came to me when I came to the realization that we are literally made up of star stuff. I was watching a program on the discovery channel and when the narrator said that I remember I almost jumped for joy when I heard it. It might seem trivial to some but it was a big deal to me. I have never seen ourselves as a species as being so unique and special, I see us as just another life form inhabiting this wonderful planet we call Earth. If it weren't for the ability of plants to convert carbon dioxide into oxygen then we wouldn't be here.
It is fascinating to know that all life on this planet relies on some other life form for its continued existence. I find that very fact to be mind blowing! Carnivores and herbivores all sharing life on this planet and depending on one another for their continued survival. In the fictional garden of Eden we were strictly fruit eaters but this is just one more instance where the bible is wrong. We need certain vitamins and minerals and a lot of nutrients to sustain this body of ours in good working condition and health. Fruits just don't have everything we need.
Today I live for these eureka moments and find that discovery of any knowledge and the feeling you get with it is worth the journey. Religion just doesn't do it for me anymore, there is nothing like science. That's why God did it is to me not an answer to all the worlds unanswerable questions. I get a certain high when I learn something new, that is why I only read academic books for pleasure. I don't read fiction anymore and haven't done so since high school. I read about evolution, general biology, astronomy, comparative religion, etc. I watch movies but I love watching documentaries about science and discovering things about the world we live in and about ourselves as a species.
This is why faith is just not an option for me and it never will be. I refuse to believe that "God did it" is the answer to everything. It takes away from the journey of discovery and learning which I think is vital to each and every one of us who loves to exercise their minds. I know how religions work and how they influence the lives of their adherents first hand. It is because of this reason that religion has lost its luster with me. It's like seeing an amazing magic trick for the first time and then later finding out exactly how the illusion was created. When you see that trick done again with the knowledge of how it's done then it just doesn't have the same effect on you as it did the first time you saw it.
Religion isn't even a challenge for my mind anymore. I like writing about it and debunking it but I could never be a believer again with all of the knowledge I have gained about religion throughout the years. Religion is demeaning and oppressive to me these days, and I feel a certain repulsion for it since I managed to break free of its grasp. In closing I would just like to say that as long as there are things to discover and learn from this life, I will continue my journey. Who knows, maybe two thousand years from now people would look back and laugh at our silly religions and beliefs.