Many of my views on religion are easily accessible on youtube.com where I have posted a series of videos on various topics relating to religion, particularly to Christianity. When you go to youtube just type chatpilot in the search window to view my commentary videos. I have been an atheist for about 15 years now, but I was not always this way. I at one time used to be an evangelist for the Spanish Pentecostal movement. My ministry ran for about 4 years until I began to have doubts about my cause and what I had been doing.
One requirement for you to be a good christian is to never question god nor his motives. You must exercise blind obedience to the scriptures and any doubts are quickly considered to be the influence of Satan upon your mind and life. Any thirst for knowledge outside of what is taught by the church is considered either subversive or heretical. Delving too deeply into the "mysteries" of god can get you into trouble fairly quick. What led me away from god was precisely that thirst for knowledge,that yearning to know more.
Anyone who has tried to read the bible in its entirety could tell you that once you finish, the bible has more questions than answers. The problem lies in that everything you want to know lies beyond objective knowledge and is unattainable at the moment. You can't prove that god exist nor disprove it, but I think that if you were to put the pros and cons on a scale and weigh the two you would come to the conclusion that it is highly unlikely that god exist. Come back tomorrow and I will tell you more about it.